Rakib AhamedAm I dead or Alive Part-1
October 11th 2011 17:50
Am I dead or dying ! Cant understand, May be I am dead. Those who comeback from the door of death, They got the death experiences.Its called NDE (Near Death Experience). All of them see, they are going through a long tunnel.there are eye blowing light in the end of the tunnel. That's light has attraction power like a magnet. They have to go ahead for that light's attraction like a blind person.
I cant see any tunnel not even any light.But can see myself. Nobody can see himself when he's alive without going front of a mirror.Though I can see myself so that I can think I'm dead, I am Feeling Illusion for myself by seeing me. I am lying on a bed right sided position, A Oxygen pipe in my nose hole. A canola on my left hand. Saline passing through in my blood pulse through the canola. Antibiotic also passing through with the saline. A small hole also made by doctor little down from my navel. Who knows, why the made it!!
Cellphone is ringing. Sound coming form the opposite side where I am sleeping. Its Rubinas cellphone. I can see Rubina without turning my head towards her. She is sleeping on a divan kept for patients attendance. It's a small size divan. Her one leg is out of the divan, another is folded. She is sleeping without any pillow.
Rubina asked who is that, in her sleepy mood.Caller replied I am Jui and asked how is my brother?Hm is OK , your brother is OK now.He is sleeping,I am sleepy too talk to you later. love you, replied by Rubina.Rubina again falls asleep with the phone in her hand. Before sleeps again Rubina told angrily, Every time she calls at 3a.m, what did she does in day time!! and made a whisper fucking bitch, By hearing the phone conversation I understand one thing clearly that, dead people can hear everything, even the opposite sides speaker of the phone and can hear what does anybody thinking in her/his own. Thats why I heard "fucking bitch" so clearly.But who was that caller Jui ! I am not knowing her.
I am trying to adjust myself with this new environment. Everything around me is different than when I was alive. Some good changes happened too. Lights becomes softer, Like taking a photo using slight gel on camera lance. that type of smooth or softer. The side of the divan looking smooth where Rubina is sleeping, Like no sharp edges.I heard a sound like "tuup"..that is Rubinas mobile dropping sound which was in her hand.The place where the phone drops there is an astrological book. It's name Sun Shine by Linda Goodman. Rubina was reading that book before sleeping, and telling how strange everything is matching with us, Do you wanna hear?I replied, No.That time I was feeling too much pain in my chest. troubled to taking breath.ears were closed. When an arrow plan goes too much high feels like ears became closed, like that. I was trying to relief myself from it & had no interest about hearing astrological terms that time. But my No ans, could not stop her. Rubina started reading, "Librans love people, but they hate large crowd.' Are you listening?ya I am listening.
Though we love people but don't love large numbers of people, Listen too , Libra is all about love and beauty and sweetness and light. Rubina lighted a cigarette that time, at such a time I could not taking breath, added also bad smells of cigarette with that. I told her please throw away the cigarette.Rubina replied ya I'll but only two stork,OK then use toilet for smoking, Rubina went there with the book for smoking. Me again requested please close the door too.Rubina replied no, I could not.After sometimes I heard she is laughing. But I did not understand what the funny thing could remains in an astrological book for that she was giggling. Bad smell of cigarette still coming from the toilet and now a bad smell of toilet cleaner also added with that. A water tap of basin is out of order and always a small water dropping from it. Sounds like tip-tip. Before, that water dropping sound was disturbing. Felt like, someone scratching on a blackboard.Now situation is different. Water still dropping from the basins tap and I am hearing that sound too. But now I am not feeling any disturbance for this sound rather I am feeling good by listening the sound. Like there is hidden story in that dropping waters sound. What is the story about? Suddenly I can remember it . Name of the story is "Furuth" Water dropping and making a sound furuth.In my very childhood dad was telling a story, I was listening that story in front of him like a sitting dog. I was listening charmingly--There was a country where they had thousands and thousands, millions and millions, billions and billions birds. One day The king of that country ordered for making a huge net for locking those birds, cause people of that country became very angry for the disturbance of those birds. According to Kings order his servants made a huge net. Birds were locked by that net. But in the corner of that net there was a hole anybody can't recognized that. A yellow bird flew away through that hole.
Saying that dad and stopped,
I asked then?
Dad replied , Furuth. (Fruth is using for the Birds flew away Sound)
I asked, what is furuth?
Father replied, another bird flew away fruthly..
asked, then?
Dad replied, Furuth then what?Furuth.
After sometimes I asked again, then?
Dad replied, Furuth.
I asked, when all those birds will flew away?
Dad replied, When you'll die, that day, not before that.
I am dead now.According to my dads story all birds are flew away now. But they kept away their Furuth sound. Toilets tap making that sound furuth nonstop. I am listening this sound so sweetly. Sounds like Dropping a dew from the tree. Such as lights becomes soft, sounds become soft too. I think the more time will pass away the more they become softer.Light and sound both are feel able.But Where the feelings of dead people? How is it possible that I am watching lights? How am I listening sounds too! I don't have another existence. I am not going here to there. When I was alive I saw horror movies with Rubina, She likes horror movies very much. The whip and the flesh, Women, Friday the 13, in those movies there r existence of ghosts. They can go one place to another place. They wear cloths, I've Never seen any nude ghost.Now I can understand these parts are not correct. Those who don't have any existence they don't need any dress. CLAMOROUS sounds from Rubinas bed. Rubina has been awake.She rubbing her eyes with her hands. Take the cellphone from the floor. Now watching the time. Then after taking a big yawn she is going to the toilet. A packet of cigarette in her hand. I am getting the smell of cigarette. Before my death the smell of cigarette was horrible but now the smells is good. Rubina is talking in her own. She has a habit of talking alone. She is saying, need to rub that's ass ears. son of ass, his 14 generation is ass.Is Rubina Calling ass someone specially, or saying just like saying in her own? Now I can understand, Rubina calling ass to Kader. Kader is our house keeper. May be he is a thief, but not an ass. Asses can't be thief.Dead people can understand others inside wishes, I did not know that.I heard about telepathy. There is a telepathy department in an American University. But the result of the theses on telepathy is Zero. They have to say, there is no telepathic power in human being. Now I've realized telepathy is the matter of after death.
A nurse entered in the cabin. After entering in the cabin she looks dissatisfied and asking who is smoking here? From the toilets door Rubina Answering, it's me.You can't smoke in the cabin.Thats why I am smoking in the toilet.You cant smoke in the toilet too. If you need to smoke you have to go outside.Rubina replied, its 3.45 a.m, where I'll go at this time!! If someone rape me outside then what will happen??
This nurse comes here 1st time, she is not habitues with Rubinas talking style. She is feeling uneasy now.I heard a sound of lighter again. Rubina dont smoke one after another at a time. But now She lights another cigarette for making angry the nurse. And telling loudly ,sister you can do one thing, can make a complain against me. Nurse comes near to my bed with an angry mood. She is looking to canola and also checking saline tube, Suddenly she start shouting,,Madam,,, may be the patient is dead.Rubina don't make any answer after hearing the shout. Nurse again shouts, Mam please come.. may be patience is no more..Now Rubina make a reply.. Why you are saying may be ! call the duty doctor, He'll tell after observation, Nurse get hurt for going to call the doctor with the door. Rubina says.. ass lady,, Breaking the doors.I am feeling much better now. Everybody will know about me now. its a different types of experience. Different types of work will be starts with me.Now Rubina is standing in front of me.I am thinking one thing what I thought before so many times! How is it Possible a lady is looking so Beautiful !!!
R you enjoying it? if yes then make ur comments I'll Publish part-2 of it
I cant see any tunnel not even any light.But can see myself. Nobody can see himself when he's alive without going front of a mirror.Though I can see myself so that I can think I'm dead, I am Feeling Illusion for myself by seeing me. I am lying on a bed right sided position, A Oxygen pipe in my nose hole. A canola on my left hand. Saline passing through in my blood pulse through the canola. Antibiotic also passing through with the saline. A small hole also made by doctor little down from my navel. Who knows, why the made it!!
Cellphone is ringing. Sound coming form the opposite side where I am sleeping. Its Rubinas cellphone. I can see Rubina without turning my head towards her. She is sleeping on a divan kept for patients attendance. It's a small size divan. Her one leg is out of the divan, another is folded. She is sleeping without any pillow.
Rubina asked who is that, in her sleepy mood.Caller replied I am Jui and asked how is my brother?Hm is OK , your brother is OK now.He is sleeping,I am sleepy too talk to you later. love you, replied by Rubina.Rubina again falls asleep with the phone in her hand. Before sleeps again Rubina told angrily, Every time she calls at 3a.m, what did she does in day time!! and made a whisper fucking bitch, By hearing the phone conversation I understand one thing clearly that, dead people can hear everything, even the opposite sides speaker of the phone and can hear what does anybody thinking in her/his own. Thats why I heard "fucking bitch" so clearly.But who was that caller Jui ! I am not knowing her.
I am trying to adjust myself with this new environment. Everything around me is different than when I was alive. Some good changes happened too. Lights becomes softer, Like taking a photo using slight gel on camera lance. that type of smooth or softer. The side of the divan looking smooth where Rubina is sleeping, Like no sharp edges.I heard a sound like "tuup"..that is Rubinas mobile dropping sound which was in her hand.The place where the phone drops there is an astrological book. It's name Sun Shine by Linda Goodman. Rubina was reading that book before sleeping, and telling how strange everything is matching with us, Do you wanna hear?I replied, No.That time I was feeling too much pain in my chest. troubled to taking breath.ears were closed. When an arrow plan goes too much high feels like ears became closed, like that. I was trying to relief myself from it & had no interest about hearing astrological terms that time. But my No ans, could not stop her. Rubina started reading, "Librans love people, but they hate large crowd.' Are you listening?ya I am listening.
Though we love people but don't love large numbers of people, Listen too , Libra is all about love and beauty and sweetness and light. Rubina lighted a cigarette that time, at such a time I could not taking breath, added also bad smells of cigarette with that. I told her please throw away the cigarette.Rubina replied ya I'll but only two stork,OK then use toilet for smoking, Rubina went there with the book for smoking. Me again requested please close the door too.Rubina replied no, I could not.After sometimes I heard she is laughing. But I did not understand what the funny thing could remains in an astrological book for that she was giggling. Bad smell of cigarette still coming from the toilet and now a bad smell of toilet cleaner also added with that. A water tap of basin is out of order and always a small water dropping from it. Sounds like tip-tip. Before, that water dropping sound was disturbing. Felt like, someone scratching on a blackboard.Now situation is different. Water still dropping from the basins tap and I am hearing that sound too. But now I am not feeling any disturbance for this sound rather I am feeling good by listening the sound. Like there is hidden story in that dropping waters sound. What is the story about? Suddenly I can remember it . Name of the story is "Furuth" Water dropping and making a sound furuth.In my very childhood dad was telling a story, I was listening that story in front of him like a sitting dog. I was listening charmingly--There was a country where they had thousands and thousands, millions and millions, billions and billions birds. One day The king of that country ordered for making a huge net for locking those birds, cause people of that country became very angry for the disturbance of those birds. According to Kings order his servants made a huge net. Birds were locked by that net. But in the corner of that net there was a hole anybody can't recognized that. A yellow bird flew away through that hole.
Saying that dad and stopped,
I asked then?
Dad replied , Furuth. (Fruth is using for the Birds flew away Sound)
I asked, what is furuth?
Father replied, another bird flew away fruthly..
asked, then?
Dad replied, Furuth then what?Furuth.
After sometimes I asked again, then?
Dad replied, Furuth.
I asked, when all those birds will flew away?
Dad replied, When you'll die, that day, not before that.
I am dead now.According to my dads story all birds are flew away now. But they kept away their Furuth sound. Toilets tap making that sound furuth nonstop. I am listening this sound so sweetly. Sounds like Dropping a dew from the tree. Such as lights becomes soft, sounds become soft too. I think the more time will pass away the more they become softer.Light and sound both are feel able.But Where the feelings of dead people? How is it possible that I am watching lights? How am I listening sounds too! I don't have another existence. I am not going here to there. When I was alive I saw horror movies with Rubina, She likes horror movies very much. The whip and the flesh, Women, Friday the 13, in those movies there r existence of ghosts. They can go one place to another place. They wear cloths, I've Never seen any nude ghost.Now I can understand these parts are not correct. Those who don't have any existence they don't need any dress. CLAMOROUS sounds from Rubinas bed. Rubina has been awake.She rubbing her eyes with her hands. Take the cellphone from the floor. Now watching the time. Then after taking a big yawn she is going to the toilet. A packet of cigarette in her hand. I am getting the smell of cigarette. Before my death the smell of cigarette was horrible but now the smells is good. Rubina is talking in her own. She has a habit of talking alone. She is saying, need to rub that's ass ears. son of ass, his 14 generation is ass.Is Rubina Calling ass someone specially, or saying just like saying in her own? Now I can understand, Rubina calling ass to Kader. Kader is our house keeper. May be he is a thief, but not an ass. Asses can't be thief.Dead people can understand others inside wishes, I did not know that.I heard about telepathy. There is a telepathy department in an American University. But the result of the theses on telepathy is Zero. They have to say, there is no telepathic power in human being. Now I've realized telepathy is the matter of after death.
A nurse entered in the cabin. After entering in the cabin she looks dissatisfied and asking who is smoking here? From the toilets door Rubina Answering, it's me.You can't smoke in the cabin.Thats why I am smoking in the toilet.You cant smoke in the toilet too. If you need to smoke you have to go outside.Rubina replied, its 3.45 a.m, where I'll go at this time!! If someone rape me outside then what will happen??
This nurse comes here 1st time, she is not habitues with Rubinas talking style. She is feeling uneasy now.I heard a sound of lighter again. Rubina dont smoke one after another at a time. But now She lights another cigarette for making angry the nurse. And telling loudly ,sister you can do one thing, can make a complain against me. Nurse comes near to my bed with an angry mood. She is looking to canola and also checking saline tube, Suddenly she start shouting,,Madam,,, may be the patient is dead.Rubina don't make any answer after hearing the shout. Nurse again shouts, Mam please come.. may be patience is no more..Now Rubina make a reply.. Why you are saying may be ! call the duty doctor, He'll tell after observation, Nurse get hurt for going to call the doctor with the door. Rubina says.. ass lady,, Breaking the doors.I am feeling much better now. Everybody will know about me now. its a different types of experience. Different types of work will be starts with me.Now Rubina is standing in front of me.I am thinking one thing what I thought before so many times! How is it Possible a lady is looking so Beautiful !!!
R you enjoying it? if yes then make ur comments I'll Publish part-2 of it
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